Positive thinking and favourite things

I'm still doing really well, I think, considering that the surgery is in 4 days.  I am 100% confident that I'm doing the right thing - no doubts here.  I just can't wait to get started - the waiting sucks.

I've made a shift in my thinking in the past week.  I am trying my best to put a positive spin on all this (not so easy for a partially pessimistic person).  Yes, this is going to be hard.  And yes, it's a big deal.  But the surgery is not something that's happening to me, I chose to do this.  I am not a victim.  So many women wake up from a mastectomy knowing that the hard part is still ahead of them.  I want to wake up from surgery feeling relieved that my breast cancer risk is behind me, and now I can get on with my life (well, except for that ovarian cancer risk... but I'll take care of that soon enough). 

I'm pampering myself a bit, giving myself time with my favourite things.  I'm loading up my iPod with good music, podcasts, and audiobooks.  I'm drinking really good wine (no cheapo stuff for me this week), and enjoying good food.  I went to the opera last week, and am going to the theatre this week.  Had a massage this morning, and having dinner with my best friends tomorrow night.  Life is rich right now - and this is what I want to remember, and look forward to, when I'm recovering.

Thank you for all your kind words, notes, care packages, phone calls - it's all so wonderful.  I have such a great support group around me.

And on that note - I promised to be specific when I need something... so... about 3 weeks after my surgery, Ian will go back to work.  And I usually iron his shirts for him.  So if anyone feels like doing some ironing... that's what I'm gonna need!  =)